Am I Selfish to LOVE who I Am?
By Lee-Anne Peters
Growing up I used to be extremely unconfident about myself. I had zero love for who I was, and was conditioned like many to not be selfish, but to put others first! Being a caring person is a part of my nature, however being unloving towards myself is not. I thought it was, but now I see it is quite unnatural for me to being unloving to me.
|Lack of self love can bring up feelings like: loneliness, depression, overwhelm.|
When I started my self-healing journey around the year 2000 it revealed to me how blocked I was with my own self love. Insecurities and doubts were revealed as I worked hard cutting ties and attachments that others had to me – they depended on me as I served them. It wasn't completely them though - I allowed it! It was time to get my power back!
At times I feel so mighty small,
Especially when you mute the call.
My attempts to communicate aren’t effective,
So I just leave you be and become self-reflective!
How can I hold my energy high,
When all you do is let out an unhappy sigh?
My heart wants to help you so,
However nothing I say can make that pain go.
I breathe deeply, I release that desire,
To help you now – all you want is to expire.
I do my best to make the most of this,
To be true to myself and ignore that hiss.
I breathe again and look in the mirror,
I am real about my feelings – they aren’t my killer.
My feelings help me understand my truth,
And how to find a much needed energy boost!
The mirror is foggy, how can that be?
I look into my eyes and I struggle to see...
There is more pain than I originally thought,
It seems in that net I’ve been caught.
I stare back into my sensitive eyes,
I ask myself, why do I need to hide?
Can’t I just go on as before?
Can I ignore that wave crashing shore?
I don’t want to ignore the feelings I feel,
I want to feel in order to heal.
I place my hand there on my heart,
My eyes glass over, I am eager to start.
I feel the love I have for me,
An unconditional love that will set me free.
This love I have can never die,
I am my best friend *a contented sigh*
I don’t need to rely on others at all,
To say my name - to follow the call.
My calling is mine I see,
No one else can know what I see.
My reflection starts to shine brighter to me,
I smile at me and all that I see.
I say the words – ‘I love you my dear’,
Not based on ego or any old fear.
I breathe deep and welcome in love,
The world isn’t out to get me – I’m free like a dove,
I wipe the tears from my loving eyes,
There’s no need to wear this stinky disguise!
So off it comes, I move deeper in love,
A love for myself – below and above.
No matter what others project onto me,
I am true to myself and I will always be...
Be me, be here, shine bright – that’s me!
If others don’t like it – then leave me be!
For there is only one special person in my life,
That person will not cause me strife!
Excerpt from – I Am Goddess, it’s time to shine! – Lee-Anne Peters
As I broke away it threatened others, however it enhanced me. I began to feel more balanced, whole, compassionate and clear – a new sense of purpose awakened within me – all thanks to loving myself further.
Now I continue to take it deeper… to be aware of my thoughts and words towards me – ensuring they are as loving as can be. Now I have a renewed sense of purpose and genuinely love who I am.
Today I shared on my Radio Show / Podcast on SELF LOVE. In it I shared lots of tips and a live self love meditation / healing. It’s free, and here’s the player.
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You deserve to enjoy your life -----> self LOVE is the key!
To help you self LOVE -----> listening to your feelings are the key!
Lee-Anne Peters is a multiple self-published author, artist, mentor, speaker and radio host. The founder of the award-winning Temple of Balance -which is full of amazing resources, tools, services, products and events to help you love who you are and to follow your passions in life! Have your Temple of Balance experience by visiting www.templeofbalance.com
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